I can't express the pain I'm in..

Everything after yesterday was just fucked up.
Everything got messed up.
Sigh, life's damn messed up.
Baby, even if you apologise, you know wht you have done.
You still don't know why I am angry.
Everytime this littlest things add together to make me do wht I am doing.
You think its cuz of my moodswings.
You hate me & all, but you dk wht is really happening to me.
You think you know, but you don't.
You think I don't know wht you're doing out thr, but I do.
I don't even feel like continuing now.
You apologise & all, but whts the point when you apologise just for the sake tht I'll forgive you.
But if you don't even know your mistakes, how the fuck are you even gonna learn from it or wht.
You think everything's over.
For me, it ain't.
I continue over thr, but you can continue your fucking acts right in front of my face.
You promise me & all.
But did you keep any?
Everytime you see me , w a smile on my face.
But wht's happening deep down.
Who'll ever know?
You think I'll always be kept in the dark, but in actual fact, I know manymany things.
Just that I don't wanna say it out.
Yes, I don't wanna lose you.
But I know you're making all these excuses & all.
So tht feelings towards you will fade.
So you'll go back t her.
Or maybe you're already w her.?
I saw her blog. Even if its in white, I can always highlight & see..
I won't blame her, although she does blame me for everything.
I know how much hatred she has in me.
Thts why she scolded me & all.
Cuz she cares for you.
Even if she got back w you, I won't blame her.
Your mouth's really v sweet.
I can't not admit.